Nums Films LLC - .....'dedicated to the lost art of classic filmmaking'
Directors
Statement
At the risk of becoming self-indulgent and impudent, it is in my best interest
to constantly monitor myself and the things that I put forth in this film. But
without the ability to utilize spontaneous thought and action, these films would
be nothing. So as I adventure in life; through thought, through mood and through
action, you adventure with me as well. Frequently I will make the wrong decisions
in my life. And frequently I will make the right decisions. But what is so fun
about this, is that it is all a matter of perspective. And my foibles may create
surges of happiness in you. And my luminous moments may be avenues of depression
for you. It is so difficult to tell. And as with any other film, you can never
completely plan how it will be received. So I merely say, 'enjoy my life'.
I grew up with a camera in my hand. In fact, filmmaking is the only language I have ever truly known. In life I have met with successes and failures, as everyone else has. But in my mind this film is and will not be a success or a failure. It simply will 'be'. Just as one 'knows' that they are in love.
I undertook this endeavor because I had to. For myself. For film. For Art. For Humanity. For whatever you want me to say. I will not attempt to explain my films nor my art in words, that is what the films are for. As for the creation of this is concerned; I have a deep respect for the filmmaker Stanley Kubrick, and in my studies of him, I came across and idea he had about following a person from birth to death, filming their entire life. Now whether or not Mr. Kubrick actually documented this or not, I do not know. All I know is that I read about it in a few books and came across it in a few articles. Out of respect for him, out of the need to create and out of the need to showcase something new, I film my life. I film my pain. I film my joys. And I always tell the truth. I did not begin this film at birth. I began this film at the age of 25. But luckily I have a wealth of family footage from my past. So I will be able to give viewers a solid glimpse of my past as I delve into the future.
It is extremely difficult to open myself up to the entire world. And at the moment that I write this, I have only touched upon the surface. But I do not see this as a burden, because after all, how private our are emotions, our moods, and our lives? The rumors will be spread. The gossip will fly. The stories will be told. But in the end, there will only be you.
I have lost my mind several times. I have gone insane. And I was lucky enough to document it once. I will honestly say that I would not like to lose my mind again, because it is terribly trying to climb back to sanity. And if it ever happened again, I'm not sure that I would return. But it makes for interesting programming. And in watching my films, you will see this. You will see where it all began. And you will see where it all ends. I am just like you. I am no greater than you are. I am a man with a vision and a story to tell. So if I rise to fame with these films, great. If I gain money or critical acclaim, great. But I guarantee that as much as you will love a certain installment of this film series. You will hate and utterly despise another installment. And if you stick along for the ride. I thank you. Even if you only watch 5 minutes of one film, I thank you. One main thing that I would like to avoid is the estrangement of friends and relatives. It's a risk that I take, but it is worth it.
At the end of the day, we are merely human beings. We drink. We eat. We smoke. We do drugs. We party. We seek knowledge. We go to church. We go to work. We raise a family. We do terrible things. We do great things. We try to find happiness. We try to find peace. We try and try and try and try too hard. And for some of you, this film will be a crystal clear answer.
I wish that I could say more....but you'll just have to watch my films to understand.
-Written by Joseph Ryan McConnell 2008
The
Transformation Part I- The
Life and Times of The Star Children (Filmed Oct. 27 2007 - Jan. 1 2008)
The Transformation Part II- Promises
(Currently Filming)